Week 9 -Master Key – Character

As I have studied this week still working on imagination, visualization and who am I really?  It’s like I’ve hit a block or is it soul searching for truth?  “Character is not a thing of chance, but it is the result of continued effort. If you are timid, vacillating, self-conscious, or if you are over-anxious or harassed by thoughts of fear or impending danger remember that is axiomatic that “two things cannot exist in the same place at the same time.”

In my soul searching, I’m feeling my old blue print.  “My conscious mind is reasoning will.  My Subconscious mind is instinctive desire, the result of past reasoning will.” Thinking about my past reasoning will as a child, I’m beginning to feel why I’m struggling with visualization. I only remember two things as a young child associated with imagination.  I imagined I could fly as I jumped from the garage to another building. I made a golf course out of soup cans, building hills and different obstacles for my golf course. This may be an obstacle as I didn’t use my imagination. Most of my childhood was being responsible for my sisters and being taught to be obedient and obey rules! I was disciplined using the guilt method!! I was taught to achieve, to do my best and do it perfectly. It was when I met my boyfriend who eventually became my husband, that I learned to laugh and have fun and to feel! I feel my own desires were definitely controlled and to some degree, not allowed. So now I’m trying to visualize my instinctive desire, and stating to my “subby” certain specific things to be accomplished and the negative thoughts enter in that it is impossible.  My logical mind!  Then looking at the Gal in the Mirror.  Starring in my eyes, I can see deep in my soul wondering who am I really? I’m happy with my character, but I feel I can be so much more! The affirmation “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy” feels good.  This affirmation has definitely helped me when I’ve been struggling this week. My visualization has been improving and I’ve decided in order to visualize effectively, the FEELINGS MUST BE STRONG. I tried to visualize the red beautiful peonies that are one of my favorites in my island in my yard but I couldn’t.  When I tried to visualize the orange rose my husband loved that has grown tall over the fence and is starring in my kitchen window, I started to visualize the orange rose in my mind. It started out small, but each time grew more vivid and clear! (Visualization is the mechanism of the attachment which you require)  Yes, there is, definitely ATTACHMENT! Now, this orange rose didn’t start out to be my favorite rose. It was my husband’s favorite color of all our roses. Interesting, orange is used as leukemia color. My husband was diagnosed with leukemia so when that orange rose grew so tall and stands strong over my six foot fence, there is a lot of feeling and ATTACHMENT as I look at that orange rose. It’s like the rose has a spiritual connection. Even in November, there is an orange bud on the orange rose bush!! It’s very interesting that the orange roses appear at very meaningful times, sort of like it has a spiritual connection. Thought is a spiritual activity and spirit is creative, therefore the result of holding this thought in mind, must necessarily bring about conditions inharmony with the thought.  I feel these spiritual connections in many areas of my life but when I’m having thoughts about “All Substance” (wealth), my desire and my thoughts fall into the “two things that cannot exist in the same place at the same time.”  My logical mind connects in to what my desire is and the “how” is impossible.  I need to think correctly as I know all things are possible with God and cling to the truth and not allow the doubts in! I must enter into the “Secret Place of the Most High” in order to connect to my within, the within that knows all power; connecting the person in the mirror through my eyes piercing into and through my soul.  To know the Truth is to be in harmony with the Infinite. To know the truth is, therefore to connect myself with a power which is irresistible and which will sweep away every kind of discord, inharmony, doubt or error of any kind, because the “Truth is mighty and will prevail.” So, I will continue my efforts.  I have so much work to do!! Working harder to crack that cement; to visualize and find my feelings of attachment to bring about the outcome of my desires.

Here’s to PecorelliPower to entertain only the good thoughts and restart the mental diet for myself. Feed my mind with positive affirmations and thoughts. I must be kind to myself as I am of infinite worth and keep working on the Law of Growth and continued effort. On to week 10.  I will soar like an Eagle not just think I can fly!